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Review: Velvet Collar Issue 2: Rough Trade Secrets

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The second issue of sex worker Bryan Knight’s comic series Velvet Collar, “Rough Trade Secrets,” depicts the aftermath of Rentman’s shutdown, the series’ thinly veiled fictionalization of rentboy.com. Abel, still chasing the wrong men, has shifted into freelance graphic design work. Storm’s precocious daughter, now a teenager, has become a high-school decrim activist, to the chagrin of her dad. (It’s hard to keep it on the low when your own child is blowing up your spot). Billy had to live in his car for a while, but has since joined the other gig economy as a Lyft driver. Indomitable Daddy is in a relationship with a trapeze student hunk and steering clear of sex work. Rica Shay is barely scraping by, increasingly relying on his side- side-hustle of selling blackmarket steroids. 

Into this morass of disruptive fallout from the Rentman raid stomps Ten, a butch/femme switch in a men’s suit, high heels, and a shock of red hair falling over one eye—with two bodyguards in leather dog masks in tow. Ten lays out a proposition, claiming that the Rentman servers are full of personal data incriminating important politicians and businessmen, a “political nuclear bomb.” He proposes to pay them $50,000 apiece to steal the servers out of federal custody. This bonkers scheme is greeted with scorn until Ten reveals that he also has dirt on our five workers—Rica Shay for selling steroids, Daddy for tax evasion, etc. Abel is summarily evicted from his apartment as proof, and Ten threatens to ruin the lives of the rest of them if they don’t help. 

Ten then directs their anger towards a notorious troll, a “seventy-one year old real estate tycoon from Queens,” (get it?) who has “spent years collecting personal information on hundreds of sex workers…” fingering him as the villain behind their blackmailing. It falls on Storm—who is revealed to be a secret agent of an organization called NAAMAH—to convert our five into a special ops team and undertake this high-stakes mission. Storm enlists his brother Star, who is also a down-low sex worker and possible secret agent to help. In the final frames, Ten is revealed to be the lover of the new lead prosecutor on the Rentman case, lamenting how he will have to betray his fellow workers.  

Issue 1 represents a strong start to a promised 9-part series, with clearly rendered characters, concise and neatly interwoven plot lines, and some graphically beautiful frames. Issue 2 departs from established facts to speculate on what might be the true motivations and consequences of the Rentman/Rentboy raid. The graphics are less consistent than in Issue 1—there are two artists on inks, and a third on colors and the cover—and the palette is generally murkier. This might reflect the plot, a hairball of conspiracy theories, double-crossers, and secret agents. It will take some Daddy-level acrobatics to untangle all the strands and resolve them into a plausible conclusion over the seven following issues, however a sneak preview has been released of Issue 3, entitled “Performance Anxiety,” showing our stalwart team fucking their way into a federal storage facility. 

With that said, Velvet Collar breaks ground in chronicling the new realities of sex work in the SESTA/FOSTA era, in which once-reliable platforms have vanished, leaving workers scrambling. The observational work that the creators have undertaken to depict relatable sex worker characters will go a long way in getting us through to the end of a story that is surely unfinished and untold. 


Former sex worker and activist Dale Corvino’s short fiction and essays have appeared in various publications, including online at the Rumpus and Salon. He won the 2018 Gertrude Press Fiction Chapbook contest with a trio of short stories; Worker Names was published in 2019. Recent publications include a reflection on Chile’s massive populist uprising and the legacy of queer writer Pedro Lemebel for the Gay & Lesbian Review and an essay on growing constraints on adult online content in Matt Keegan: 1996, from New York Consolidated/Inventory Press. He lives in New York City. https://dalecorvino.com

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The Guerrilla Girls

I first discovered Guerrilla Girls in 2005 – I had never heard of the group. Not a whisper or casual comment, an article or a headline, title tattle or gossip - you get my point.   I had attended an exhibition called ‘Imagine a World’ at Barge house Gallery in London launched by Amnesty International as part of its global campaign:  ‘Stop Violence Against Women’. 

An exhibition of contemporary art that aimed to make people stop and think about the impact of violence against females.  The exhibition featured paintings, photography, and sculptures.   A wonderful interactive experience in which myself and other visitors were asked to "Imagine a World without Violence" and our responses formed part of the exhibition.

Image via the Tate museum.

Image via the Tate museum.

The New York Activists Guerrilla Girls first ever appearance caused quite a stir at the Barge house, with their mix of seductive art and feminist politics. As I watched, taking in their greedily, and memorized by the celebrated poster emblazoned with "Do Women have to be Naked to get into the Met Museum,” I had found a new art crush. Crush seems such an infantile word for a moment so powerful so let me explain in another way; My senses felt ignited as if liquid adrenaline had been injected into my blood stream. Around that time, I had connected with third way feminism and had become more and more curious about Protest Art and Intersectional Feminism - A term devised by Kimberle Williams Crenshaw. My eyes had just opened to the fuckery in our social order and I believed and still do that women experience levels of repression caused by gender, color, disability, and class.  In the ‘Guilty Feminist, (2019)  Deborah Frances-Whites writes:

 ‘It’s harder to be a black, queer, broke, deaf woman than it is to be a rich straight, non-disabled, middle class, white woman, and if feminism doesn’t address that, then its part of the patriarchy’ 


My illustrious lordship, I’ll show you what a woman can do.
—   Artemisia Gentileschi 

To me the purpose of art is to make me think, and to make me think is to move me.  Therefore, Guerrilla Girls were a much-needed discovery. Women fighting for justice with furry faces, short muzzles, enormous brow ridges and large nostrils. This resonated exactly with my sense of humor, I was never going to forget them in a hurry! After looking into their work, I relished the activist approach that they had adopted and felt I could connect with this attitude.  They spoke “truth” to me in a witty and powerful way. ‘The Conscience of the Art World’ (Guerrilla Girls 1995- 2020). 

Speak up. Say something. Your words have the power to change the fucking world.
— Florence Given: Taken from: ‘Women Don’t Owe You Pretty’ 2020 

Guerrilla Girls use facts, humor, and visuals to expose sexism, racism, and corruption in the art world. True art for me is channelled through the heart and mind, guided by emotions that stir the soul and the imagination.  Guerrilla Girls have the ability in one poster to express a thousand words in a second, and a hundred different stories.

Fight for the things that you care about. But do it in a way
that will lead others to join you.
— Ruth Bader Ginsburg (1933-2020)

The GG’s (as I affectionately call them) began in 1985 in New York City. Angered by the lack of recognition for female artists and fed up with being overlooked by  leading institutions of art in the United States including MoMA curator Kynaston McShine who publicly said that anyone who failed to be included in an international survey of contemporary paintings should reconsider his career, decided that they should take the task on of bringing gender and racial inequality into focus. The group (Guerrilla Girls’ 1985 – 2020) consists of founding members Frida Kahlo & Kathe Kollwitz and other unidentified artists/art professionals who have assumed the names of deceased female artists. The group wore gorilla masks to maintain anonymity and "to keep the focus on the issues rather than our personalities." (Guerrilla Girls 1985-2020). 

Image via the Tate museum.

Image via the Tate museum.

Any establishment who did not represent the work of enough women and artists of color in their exhibitions became a target for the social critics. As a source of inspiration to other female artists and artists of color, they began pasting sly posters with meanings and stickers in visible places near art galleries and museums in New York City conveying strong messages. Their first posters, devoid of imagery, relied on text and graphic design, to make sharp social commentary - A statement directed toward the underrepresentation of women in the art world with bullet points supporting evidence of gender discrimination (Naming and shaming). Specific museums, galleries and individuals were a target for their metaphorical bow and arrows, used to shoot truth in the form of words. The arrows of deliverance getting right into the center of the community to speak reality, sending the GG’s in the direction where they needed to be heard. 

Over the past thirty-five years  Guerrilla Girls have plastered billboards with slogans like "Do women have to be naked to get into the Met Museum?" "The Advantages of Being a Woman in the Art World", Male-Female Pay Gap to Gender Inequality at the Oscars; “Unchain the Women”, and “Acts of Police Violence in the US Are Crimes Against Humanity 2020”. They have written a variety of works, including ‘The Guerrilla Girl’s Bedside Companion to the History of Western Art’ and ‘Hysterical Herstory of Hysteria’ and basically said fuck you to the art world where males hold primary power and predominate and have collaborated with Greenpeace, created over 100 street projects, appeared at museums and universities as well as in the broad sheets -  including British newspaper The Guardian, The New York Times, NBC News, BBC News as well as many feminist and art writings  (Guerrilla Girls 1985-2020).  All under the disguise of the great ape masks. 

The group attracted a fair share of criticism in the early years.  Roberta Smith -Art Critic of the New York Times - was displeased to see her name on a poster that listed 22 critics who wrote about women less than 10 % of the time.

Hardly any artists had the guts to attack the sacred cows. 
We were immediately THE topic at dinner parties, openings, even on the street. Who were these women? How dare they say that? Women artists loved us, almost everyone hated us, and none of them  could stop talking about us.
— Anais Nin  (Guerrilla girls 1995-2020)

 ‘As an art critic, I part company with them on their attitude toward the 

notion of quality, which they see as a nonissue’

The GG’s involvement in the conventional and established art world reflects their success in raising attention to racism and sexism.  They have influenced the work of artists such as  Micol Hebron . In her Gallery Tally Project, Hebron counts the representation of women in international galleries. The GG’s also set the stage for other opinionated feminist groups such as Pussy Riot. A Russian feminist punk rock group who tackle LGBTQ rights amongst other issues. ‘To me, they are art world royalty’:  David Kiehl -Whitney American Museum of Art Curator.

There are many more battles to fight but GG’s relentless crusade has played a vital role in edging us closer to true equality and acceptance. 

Image via the Tate museum.

Image via the Tate museum.

GG’s altered the relationship between art and politics. Activism seems not only acceptable, but vital in the art world. They prompted critics and curators to be more inclusive of women and minorities. The masked crusaders are as valid and needed today, as they were 35 years ago. People need the truth to thrive. Truth is important. Indeed, art and ethics are intimately related, artistic, and ethical values each have unique roles to play in the art world, but neither can operate independently.  Art may please; Art can be a pleasure to look at, but extraordinary art can outrage, move, question, or change perception. The disguised group of gals is still going strong and incognito 35 years after they first announced their mission to blow the whistle on an art world dominated by men. They are everywhere but nowhere.  Those very women could be the solo artist whose show you just saw in Manhattan. (Not impossible).  A curator that gave a talk to you and your friends in a gallery in Soho. (You never know).  Your art lecturer at Long Island University (Wouldn’t that be awesome).  The woman you just brushed shoulders with in Bed, Bath and Beyond on 6th Avenue.  (You kinda wondered why there was a furry mask sticking out of her purse!) 

What will the next 35 years hold? Asteroids? Aliens landing? Seriously though, will there be change in global human behavior? World economy? The Class System? Education?  Whatever happens I want the Guerrilla Girls fighting my corner.   


Justina Jameson is an emerging writer from the UK. When she is not writing at the weekend, she can be found holding down a 9 to 5 as a Senior Administrative. Justina has  a Social Welfare and Community Degree which examines the quality of human life in a society in all its dimensions. She feels strongly in female empowerment and believes that women should make personal and professional choices that they want  and not let society make them very guilty about those very choices. Justina likes art, dogs, books, laughter and lives with her long tern partner and their dog Cooper-Star.

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365 Days and Why It Should Be Removed From Netflix

An honest review of the 2020 erotic film “365 Days” by Jessica Reid.

*Be aware this article discusses potentially distressing and triggering topics including (but not limited to; sexual and domestic abuse, coercive behaviour, assault and kidnap. Links at the end of the article for organisations to seek support if you’ve been affected by one of these issues.*

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Over the last month I have watched with horror (and some confusion) as the film ‘365 Days’ remains on Netflix UK’s Top 10 Most Watched List, spending a significant amount of time at #1. If, by some blessing, this film shown up at some point on your social media over the last month I watched this film so you don’t have to. Allow me to explain its’ premise.



Based on Blanka Lipinska’s novel of the same name ‘365 Days’ follows Laura Biel, a Polish woman, stuck in a passionless relationship as she gets kidnapped by mafia Don Massimo Toricelli while on holiday in Sicily for her 29th birthday. Massimo then gives Laura (who we learn he has been searching for over a period of years after seeing her once) 365 days to fall in love with him and if she doesn’t he will let her go. Prior to going on to discuss the extreme issues this film has I’d like to make a quick aside and highlight the fact that according to the New York Times 81% of people believe they ‘have a book in them’ – ‘365 Days’ are perfect evidence to highlight why this is not the case.



The genre of Erotic Romance and Romance as a whole has been heavily under fire over the last few years as the growth of the #MeToo movement has cast light on the concerning tropes within the genre which could be considered sexual and domestic abuse. Indeed there has been a move towards attempting to show that these tropes are not acceptable or encouraged, nor are they considered romantic. The film ‘365 Days’ ignores all of this and contributes to normalising abusive behaviours and blatantly portrays a dangerous and toxic relationship as sexy and romantically ‘thrilling’. It’s essentially another Fifty Shades of Grey however switching out a billionaire with a dominating mafia Don and somehow it continues to be popular with 83% of google users liking the film.



Semi-pornographic and constantly bringing up consent but then never actually showing fully consensual sex, it should not be considered appropriate film to have even been made never mind published as a book. Throughout the film Massimo coerces, controls and abuses Laura, from kidnapping her, routinely grabbing her, holds her captive and consistently assaulting her. This behaviour, is treated as normal and desirable only standing to further cement people’s belief that when women say no this can somehow be construed as a yes.



However perhaps the most uncomfortable aspect of this film is the fact that it is so popular. While being treated as a bit of a joke as a generally awful film, it still somehow reached number one and still somehow has hundreds of people saying things like ‘wishing Massimo would come and kidnap me right now’ on social media. But we can’t treat this as a joke because what it shows is continues to be people’s reality. As a society we continue to work towards improving people’s understanding of what a healthy relationship is. What behaviours we should expect and have when conducting ourselves romantically or sexually. There’s still much work to be done to undo the gender stereotypes and toxic behaviours that are conditioned into us. ‘365 Days’ does nothing but hinder our progress towards a world where everyone deserves and expects a relationship of equality and respect.



Under no circumstance should this film have been made, never mind being added and pushed towards viewers by Netflix as some romantic thriller. In fact due to its’ dangerous premise and toxic relationships it portrays I believe the film should be fully taken down from Netflix to limit the reach it has and to show that the normalisation of abuse is not, and never should be considered acceptable.



If you’ve been negatively impacted by this film in any way please or have currently experienced or are experiencing abuse, please consider looking at these resources:

Refuge – National Domestic Abuse Helpline

Women’s Aid Helpline

ManKind Initiative Helpline

Galop (LGBTQ+ Helpline)


Jess Reid is a writer and activist-in-training. She passionately advocates for better sex education and intersectional feminism. When she’s not writing she can be found with a cup of coffee and a good romance novel. You can find more of her writing at her blog ‘The Sex Talk’ or on Instagram @the_sex_talk20 on Instagram and on Twitter @Jess_Reid2019.

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10 Years Since Easy A; a Retrospect

A deep dive into the whorephobia and sexual double standards that Easy A exposes, and reinforces..

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It's been ten years since Hollywood has graced us with the glorious movie that is Easy A. Starring one of our favorite "not like the other girls" Emma Stone, who's not afraid to be goofy or silly, women everywhere saw it instantly as a smart film that was feminist, charming, and sweet. Obviously, it would never come close to beating Elle Woods in Legally Blonde, but it did it's best. It was a movie that challenged slut-shaming, that opened up new discussions about sexuality and relationships, and was a refreshing alternative to the battered and worn out hero of Anne Hathaway in The Devil Wears Prada (if she even IS the hero...) and our ironic love of Mean Girls and Clueless.


The moment I saw Easy A, I loved it. I loved that first tongue-in-cheek nude shot of Olive at her best friends Rhiannon’s parents house. I loved the lazy southern california vibe, which nestled in its comfortable arms teenagers that were way too cool and fashionable to actually be teenagers, and all of whom lived in houses that we could only dream of. I loved the witty dialogue, the parents that were cool beyond belief, and Olive's adorable awkwardness that all of us could only too easily identify with. It was gorgeous, full of light and life, with cultural nods to polyamory, swinging, exploring sexuality, and adopting. It felt like a movie made in Berkeley, and with a main character who becomes the heroine because she lets boys tell everyone that they've slept with her, it seemed eons away from the slut-shaming in such beloved films as Grease, 10 Things I Hate About You, and Juno (although this is one of the very rare films that lovingly and tenderly breaks down slut-shaming and teenage pregnancy to make the beloved heroine one of the best loved characters in modern teen films). But now, 10 years on, I find myself wondering if it was really just a film about fauxpowerment, and that maybe I shouldn't have been so enthusiastic.

For all of it's hilarity and silliness, the film's true themes are dark and dismal. While it starts out in good fun (who hasn't spent a weekend doing absolutely nothing while screaming Pocketful of Sunshine at the top of their lungs?) it quickly goes to dark depths. While Olive uses an innocent enough lie to get out of a weekend with her best friend, she realizes that it also comes with some positive male attention. For the first time, some of the guys at school are looking her way, and she kinda likes it. And it's through an act of the most generous kindness that she helps her friend Brandon out, by pretending to sleep with him at a classmate's party. The reaction to both is swift, and the punishment for Olive is almost immediate. While Brandon is instantly elevated in social status and is finally welcome to join the guys, Olive finds herself alone, and the temperature of the attention has shifted. Now it feels judgemental, and crude. She doesn't feel good about herself anymore, and the only thanks she gets in return for helping Brandon out is a gift card. Sex and sexuality is presented as something that can only benefit men, and while women are encouraged to be sexual, once Olive "crosses the line" she is perceived in a negative light. What then transpires is a classic example of slut-shaming, in which she is ostracized by many people at the school, while simultaneously men were still entitled to the privilege of easily taking advantage of her to improve their own social status. Their rise is directly correlated to her fall, so yea, fuck sexism and the double standard of patriarchy.

Olive leans into it, and as many of us can agree, even if it's a fake one we've all had some sort of slutty phase. Afterall, if we can't beat them, why don't we just join them? All my life I was told to wear conservative clothing, to lower my eyes when men stared at me, to smile when I was told to smile, and more. If men are going to sexualize me, didn't it make sense to at least control the narrative? That way, when men harass me for being sexual, at least I can pretend that I am inviting it. And while women such as Leora Tanenbaum write that the only way to counteract slut-shaming in our current cultural climate is to dress more modestly and try to not aggressively or openly 'ask for' harassment, and while some forms of fauxpowerment play right into patriarchy's hands by 'giving us permission' to be sexual objects, by carefully thinking about our intentions we can find a careful balance by which we are empowered and safe.


While I secretly loved that Olive gets paid for her labor through various gift cards and coupons, the shame that comes with being a sexualized woman also runs rampant and in the end, the cost is higher than the gains. The terrible cousins of slut-shaming are blackmail, coercion, and victim blaming and disbelief, and Olive finds new lows in which all the friends she's helped out are nowhere to be found. But in her female community, she does find support, enough to tell-all in a webcast, and ride off with her stunning male lead into the perfect Ojai sunset.


We are all meant to leave this film feeling good, but while the real villain of the movie is the sexual double standard that elevates men for their sexuality while putting down women for their sexuality, the more obvious and visible villain is the members of the christian abstinence club on campus. They're a foil that convinces us that religious conservatism is to blame instead of institutionalized whorephobia and sexism. The movie itself is even a bit of a shallow scam as well, because while we walk away feeling good and cute about everything, our heroine didn't *actually* have to sleep with anyone to gain her reputation. Get it guys, haha, it was just a joke. Don't worry, I'm still chaste and sexually pure, I'm not an *actual* slut.

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Maybe this realization was a bit too deep for most people who watch this move, but nevertheless it exists and we should be careful about idolizing movies that actually reinforce negative stereotypes against women who want to have pleasurable sexual experiences. Along those lines as well, we should probably also extend an olive (forgive me the pun) branch to people who *don't* want to have sexual experiences too.... Marianne, Olive's enemy and head of the abstinence group, is vilified for being prudish and sexually chaste, but as Jaclyn Friedman points out in her book Unscrewed, not wanting to be sexual should be just as empowering and valid as choosing to be sexual, and that it's the sexual double standard that has us seeing both options as equally bad.


So where do we go from here? I do think the climate of feminist film is slowly changing. Movies like Booksmart and Animals are at the forefront of exploring female friendship, sexuality, and relationships in ways that are empowering, free, and safe. I've loved Euphoria and what that's done to explore the complexities of young adult relationships, particularly through the toxicity of high school. More than anything though, as we consume our media it's important to ground ourselves and ask, how does this make me feel, and who does this make me want to be? In a world that punishes women for being cold and punishes them for being slutty, find out what makes you feel good, and defend it with your life.

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